Friday, April 8, 2011

Random Thoughts from a Sleepless Mother

Another sleepless night . . . grrrrr, I strongly dislike these kind of nights, but I won't complain.  Many thoughts cross my mind as I lay awake and think back on life.  Nine years ago today I had another sleepless night . . . the night when Nathan was born.  How can nine years pass so quickly?  It was a stormy night just like the one we had last night, but even more so.  Seems like all my boys were born on stormy nights.  I'm just so thankful that they haven't lived "stormy" lives.  

God is good and we have been blessed with good kids who love and respect us and who love the Lord.  

My mind wanders to Andrew; he'll soon be graduating from high school.  I worry about this next step in his life.  Is he ready to step out on his own?  Will college weigh him down with endless debt?  Have we prepared him enough to be successful in life?  My thoughts consume me.

What about Aaron . . . he's comfortable here.  With just two more years left in high school, colleges are already knocking at his door.  He's an ambitious young man and won't settle for mediocrity.  It shows in his grades, sports and friendships.  Will I be able to give him all that he needs in home school once we return to Argentina?  I wrestle with this question daily.

Nathan is still young, but he is growing up quickly.  He's a happy boy who loves to have FUN.  I worry that I'm not taking enough time to instill within him God's precious Word like I did when the older boys were his age.  What can I do differently to carve out that time with him?

So many consuming thoughts gather in my mind, none-the-less, precious thoughts, for they prompt me to seek my Heavenly Father who is interested in each one.  I am reminded of a favorite verse, "Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you" - 1 Peter 5:7.  Thank you Lord for another sleepless night.